End of the Year

Wow, the year is over. Not like anything good came out of this year except a recession, economic instability, an ongoing war, and I don't even remember what my resolutions were. Maybe next year will be better.

Happy Fucking New Year

Dreams

As we can all agree dreams can just be plain weird. However, I kind of think that our dreams are a key to what we really want to happen in our everyday lives. By no means am I talking about the dreams in which a monster destroys a city, the boogey man jumps out from under your bed, or you are exploring a distant planet and run into aliens. I am talking about the rational dreams we have involving people we know, such as our friends, family members, or the random stranger we might have passed walking down the street the other day. I am talking about the dreams that almost make us feel as if we are moving around in the physical world. Could these dreams mean anything? Is it possible that these dreams are actually what we want in life, what frightens us, or what we are too afraid to go after. Personally, if most of my dreams came true, Iwould be living in a pretty sweet reality.

Everything I'm Afraid Of

1.Rejection
2.Failure
3.Ghost stories and things that go bump in the night
4. In 5 years I'll be alone and on Xanax or Prozac
5.Going into rooms without lights on
6. Being in large social situations
7.Speaking up for myself
8.My shoe size changing, because then I would have to buy all new shoes
9. What people think about me
10.Eating cheese doodles or cheese puffs because they remind me of hairballs
11. Birds, especially their feathers
12. A monster lives in my closet, so I check every night before I go to sleep
13. Having long phone conversations, because I never really have anything to talk about
14.Failing out of college
15.Not becoming a doctor
16.Security detector things in stores will go off on me when I walk out, even if I have not purchased anything
17.I'll never have an open relationship with people
18.Getting stuck to a pool drain and either getting my intestinal track sucked out, or drowning
19.Driving with my parents in the car, it totally freaks me out
20.Sneezing in the middle of class and having snot run out of my nose, but not have a tissue to wipe it up
21. Getting extremely fat
22. Becoming obese
23.Hamsters and guinea pigs
24.Getting on the wrong train at 30th street and ending up in some god awful state
25.People who look "thuggish" or like "gangsters" standing alone on streets I walk on, I go on the opposite side of the street
26.The KKK
27.Pandemics
28. Caterpillars and inch worms, especially when in middle school people would step on them and squash out their guts
29.Getting Vitiligo
30.Being on an airplane that is about to crash into the ocean, open field, or experience engine failure
31.Developing a hunchback
32.Being Poor
33.My stuffed animals come alive at night
34.Getting stuck in an elevator or being in a falling elevator
35.Being involved in a horrible car accident with my family and being the only one who survives
36.My car door will open up while speeding down the highway
37.Living a lie
38.Not being true to myself
39.That when I crack open an egg from the grocery store, a baby chick will pop out
40.Chickens, that might actually fits in with the bird category
41.Physics
42.My life after college and my future
43.Ants crawling on me
44.Finding people in a crowd, especially if they don't have a cell phone
45.Getting hit in the face by a soccer ball, baseball, or basketball
46.Going into my basement late at night
47.Undercooked meat
48.Having a Brain Tumor
49.Loosing my iPod
50.Doing something insanely stupid that I will regret
51.Telling to much about myself while drunk
52.My Pencil will break or I will run out of ink in my pen in the middle of a test
53.My transcript
54.My neighbor's dog
55.Rip tides in the ocean
56.Tripping and everyone seeing it
57.Cats
58.Being shot
59.Having an aneurysm
60.Not being able to merge onto the highway
61.Getting a red light ticket
62.Getting the back of my jeans caught in an escalator
63.Standing on the yellow line at a metro station and being pushed onto the tracks
64.Fish swimming around me the ocean
65.Playing a solo
66.Poking myself in the eye
67.Accidentally bleaching my favorite sweatshirt
68.Someone overhearing me talking about them
69.Rats

So, that's what I'm afraid of. What about you?

CHRISTMAS

Coughing because of the priest's overuse of incense during mass
Having to sit through the story of Jesus' birth time and time again....it never seems to change
Realizing that 2009 is a week away and I have not accomplished much
Indulging myself with candy canes
Spending time with my family
Telling everyone Merry Christmas
Making brownies to take to dinner a my Grandma's house
Attempting to drown out Christmas carols
Seeing family members I would rather not have to see, although they do give me the best gift $$$

What I want for Christmas

This Christmas I actually didn't want that much, besides money to pay for my books and housing next semester. However I came across 4 cool gifts that I kinda want for Christmas.

1. For the All American Rejects to sing "Gives You Hell" to every person who has ever wronged me, or you, or anyone:

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

http://www.allamericanrejects.com/video/2472020:Video:264





2.Comfortable chairs at Fisher Fine Arts Library
The library is a great place to study, but the chairs are soo hard. And make studying for hours kind of uncomfortable/ your ass falls asleep. Therefore, the library should start a system where you could rent chair cushions while studying. This would eliminate the pain, embarrassment, and weird looks everyone in the library gives you as you awkwardly squirm around in you chair to wake your butt up. La-Z-Boy chairs would be a good start.



3. The Obama coin set Montel Williams sells on tv. Yes, I really want to spend money on money that probably would not be accepted by the cashiers at Wawa because it is red, white, blue, with the face of a black (well really a mixed) man on it and not the usualy silver color associated with coins.


4. Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer. Yes, I want Rudolph, to be sitting under my christmas tree tomorrow. I honestly want to see wheter or not his nose is some sort of tumor and get him the right medical care so it can be removed. However this could start a drastic Michael Jackson type saga and Rudolph could end up noseless, white as paper, and aneorixic.

6 months

So it's been 6 months since I've last written....so today I was thinking about my life, and I realized how much my life actually sucks..here are my top 6 reasons

1. I am currently broke, mainly due to the fucking University of Pennsylvania. All you do is take money away from me, destroy my self esteem, and cause unnecessary stress levels.

2. I am a fatass. School makes me study= no time for gym= stress = pizza at 2 am while studying = pint of ben n jerrys after I fail the test I was studying for a 2am = weight gain = spending all of xmas break trying to get back in shape

3.Penn is hard....wait...the sceince classes at Penn are hard...mainly because the professors don't really care...because at the end of the day...they still get their pay checks

4.Winter weather in Maryland sucks, mainly because it will be bitter cold, and no snow...I can stand the cold when there is snow...but if there is cold and no snow...it's like a slap in the face

5. It's almost New Year's...which mean resolutions...which I will end up breaking a week into the new year

6. This video..mainly because it promotes childhood obesity