How I started my morning

Don't be jealous

Finally!!!

I can finally get a good nights sleep. Tonight I am going to go to bed by 1am and not get up until 8ish for my class. Thank you Jebus!

Currently....

I am running on empty and can't sleep till tomorrow
I am unbelievably stressed
I am watching my whole world cave in
I am confused

Today

Today I am going to write a plethora of lists:

Pros and Cons of Penn
Why I hate my life
Why I love my life
My favorite colors
Why I should transfer
Everyone who has wronged me
Every asshole I have ever met
All the sly comments I have received while walking down the street minding my own business
My favorite foods
My favorite songs
The People in life i enjoy being around

Haiku (I think)

Early in the morn
Still in the afternoon sun
Dammit fuck my life



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Zodiac Signs

Although I am not a full believer, your zodiac sign tells so much about you. So today I was in Urban Outfitters with one of my friends and we started to look through the piles of random books and came across a zodiac one. Although not 100% accurate, it was pretty dead on. Apparently Scorpios are A+ bitches. Who would have thought. And are also very punctual. I have been told I am very punctual and almost a lil OCD when it comes to being on time. Anyway after looking up or zodiac sign we decided to look up the zodiac of one of our friends. But we only knew his birthday month, but not his sign. So the first sign we look at sounded like the complete opposite of him. So we moved onto the next sign which was an almost perfect match. So the question remains, is our zodiac really true? or is it just a coincidence? Or maybe it is the work of the flying spaghetti monster. He sits up in heaven next to God, Buddah, and Vishnu, and melds together animals and random objects, names them, and assigns ones for different lunar months! Wow, I really need to stop procrastinating,coming up with random non sensible ideas, and get back to the hell that is school.

*Side note: Scorpios also complain alot.

Let It Rock

This is the song that forever plays in my head as I am trudging down Locust Walk to all of my classes. It'd be kinda cool if this song played every time I entered a room. Having Kevin Rudolf and Lil Wayne around wouldn't be that bad. Maybe it would get annoying after a while. But until then, this song will be on repeat in my head.

I Will.....

subtly talk about it until it stops ruining my life../

Valentines Day

My Valentines Day involved work, running, grocery shopping, the library, nutty Neapolitan ice cream, msnbc's "lock up", and the Princess Bride. I know, I am a cool one. The only good thing that comes from this holiday is all the discounted candy I can buy tomorrow!

The only thing that irks me about Valentines Day, is the people who are determined to call this holiday "single awarness day". Just because you are not in a relationship doenst mean you should bitch about (i'm not in a relationship either, and I don't spend my day bitching/ complaining about this supposed singles awarness). Try and find something else to do, maybe next year will be your year.

I lied, there are actually two things that irk me: the lovey dovey couples who have to make a blatant show of their love and affection right in front of you, when you could personally give a lesser shit. It is not jealousy at all, just keep it in the bed room. Just because he is leaving to go to the bathroom and you will have to sit by yourself in van Pelt for 2min, doesn't mean you two need to have a 10 min make out session, just to have another one after his reutrn in three minutes.

Third thing, and I promise this is the last. I hate how on Valentine's Day they show all of the love movies about the loser girl or guy (played by an extremly hott actor or actress) who believes they won't be able to get the hott (guy or girl), but in the end they do. Umm, Hollywood if the world really worked like that self confidence issues would not exist, and there would only be single people by choice, not by looks, personality, etc. The world would be such a better place for myself and all of the single people out there.

So, I guess I ended up doing what I hate for others to do, bitch about Valentine's Day. Which is understandable considering that every time I signed on to my AOL email this week, I was asked "who will you be spending valentines day with" and then an ad for AOL singles (where I can apparently find the love of my life) popped up. And then there was the fact that it looked like Valentines Day pucked all over my aol account, filled with lots of pink, hearts, and "I love you" . Actually,maybe AOL is the reason I am somewhat bitter. Fuck you AOL!! I am going to shut down my email account.

But whatever, I am a cynical, sarcastic, look at the glass half full, 19 year old with nothing better to do on Valentines Day night, but bitch. Maybe next year things will be different (probably if pigs fly, the apocalypse comes, the mole people emerge from the center of the earth, the boogey man comes out of my closet, big foot and the yeti expose themselves to the public, the loch ness monster comes out of hiding or hell freezes over), or I will be once again sitting, on my couch, eating the candy my parents sent me, watching a love story, and bitching about something.

Yesterday I came to the conclusion....

that my life is shit....

now time to fix that, whether it means
1.going to a school that will make me happy
2.surrounding myself with friendly, nice, yet truthful people
3.taking charge of life
4.finding the happiness in the everyday
5.focusing on today, and how to make it better, and not worrying about tomorrow

Questions

1. I wonder if Jesus ever had a girlfriend?
2.Is it true some Chinese restaurants use rat me?
3.Is it possible to milk a rat? Because after all it does have mammary glands.
4.Who cam up with the stupid question, "if a tree falls in the forest and there is no one around to here it, does it make a sound"? They deserve to be shot.
5.How many possible snowflake shapes are there?
6.Why are pills certain colors?
7.Why is erectile dysfunction a real disorder and why does it matter?
8.Should old men still be having sex?
9.How much wood could a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck had dentures?
10.Can you think of another stupid question?

The Question Everyone Should Ask Themselves

Why am I the Way I Am?

Swallowed in the Sea

For some reason I woke up with this song in my head this morning. Maybe due to the fact that I had a shitty night at I am unbelievably stressed. But for some reason this part stuck out in my head and kept repeating.

Oh what good is it to live
With nothing left to give
Forget but not forgive

Not loving all you see

Maybe it means something. Who knows?

Why I Should not Watch TV

1. I watch the biggest loser so I can feel better about myself and the fact that I am not morbidly obese, and can't exercise.
2. I watch to catch a predator to hear what creepy old men write to little children. The people that get to read the conversations aloud make my day.
3. When I watch the True Life's about drug users and alcoholics I feel better about myself.
4.I watch MADE just to laugh at the kids with all of these supposed problems, that giving them makeovers will solve.
5.U secretly wish I could be like the kids on South Park and curse out all authority figures, friends, and family members around me.
6."Lock Up" late nights on MSNBC makes me feel better about my life because at least I am in college, not jail.
7. I enjoy watching Jeopardy because I feel smart when doing so, however; when the questions get hard I have to change to channel, or I will drive myself nuts.
8. I adore the trashy reality tv shows that VH 1 airs. They are so redic, however; I feel that we all secretly wish one day we could let go of our lives, stick our middle finger to the world, and do crazy shit for all too see (and get put up in a nice house, possible win 250,000 and quite possibly get your own reality show.
9. The "reality" shows on TLC including personal faves Jon & Kate plus 8, Little People Big World, and the Duggars. The only reason I watch the Duggars is to get in a good laugh. Nothing is more funny than conservative Christian wierdos who have more sex and make more babies that bunny rabits.
10.I have an unhealthy addiction to sponge bob squarepants. Iknow, I'm 19 and enjoy watching a show about a sponge who lives underwater. It is amazing, give it a try.

Stifiling Creativity

For some reason my life has this habit of going wrong all at the same time. It is almost as if some external explosion occurs and I slowly come crashing down. Take for example this past week
Monday: Had a pretty fun weekend, back to the normal school bullshit
Tuesday: Snow, really pretty, makes me think of being younger, happiness
Wednesday:Assigned presentation, thought, "okay i can do this"
Thursday:Everything begins to pile up, so much to do
Friday:Second guessing whether or not I should be at this place that manages to suck all the life out of me
Saturday: Nervous breakdown because of all the crap I have to get done this week
Sunday:Realization that everything is going downhill, but it is a new week, a new beginning things will turn around right? I'll get my presentation done.
Monday:Presentation...completely bombed because my professor really didn't listen to my ideas or even give me a chance to explain myself. She went off on a completely different topic. Are you fucking serious?!?!? This presentation was supposed to be about something I pulled out of the reading, the Islamic law code was too apparent, so I opted for the role of women in society; and then you are going shut me down. Seriously? Sadly, this isn't the first time this has happened at this god awful place. My professor I had freshman year did the same thing. He said, "you are a great writer, but you have very unconventional ideas". "Unconventional", sorry I don't fit into your conventions and I think outside the box. This is fucking academia...there are supposed to be new ideas. Sorry, I didn't know here at Penn you stifle creativity.