Monday, February 2, 2009

Stifiling Creativity

For some reason my life has this habit of going wrong all at the same time. It is almost as if some external explosion occurs and I slowly come crashing down. Take for example this past week
Monday: Had a pretty fun weekend, back to the normal school bullshit
Tuesday: Snow, really pretty, makes me think of being younger, happiness
Wednesday:Assigned presentation, thought, "okay i can do this"
Thursday:Everything begins to pile up, so much to do
Friday:Second guessing whether or not I should be at this place that manages to suck all the life out of me
Saturday: Nervous breakdown because of all the crap I have to get done this week
Sunday:Realization that everything is going downhill, but it is a new week, a new beginning things will turn around right? I'll get my presentation done.
Monday:Presentation...completely bombed because my professor really didn't listen to my ideas or even give me a chance to explain myself. She went off on a completely different topic. Are you fucking serious?!?!? This presentation was supposed to be about something I pulled out of the reading, the Islamic law code was too apparent, so I opted for the role of women in society; and then you are going shut me down. Seriously? Sadly, this isn't the first time this has happened at this god awful place. My professor I had freshman year did the same thing. He said, "you are a great writer, but you have very unconventional ideas". "Unconventional", sorry I don't fit into your conventions and I think outside the box. This is fucking academia...there are supposed to be new ideas. Sorry, I didn't know here at Penn you stifle creativity.

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