Believe

So I think I finally believe in myself. This past weekend I ran a marathon. The thing is I told no one about this for fear of people saying, "oh you can't do that" or "you def won't finish". I know this seems depressing but I actually have "friends" like that. Then I ran into my friend on my way back from picking up my stuff, and he basically said he BELIEVED that I could do it. That night I decided to run the whole thing, despite only at the most running 12 miles. We basically motivated each other through the 26.2 mile trek, we opened up to each other, and learned a lot out about it each other (I mean we were together for over 5.5 hours). So it took completely exhausting my muscles/ destroying my knees/ the possible stress fractures to get me to believe in myself. At the finish line we both basically broke down crying. Not because we had just exerted ourselves for 5.5 hours but because we had accomplished something we did not think was possible. So, to Lemuel, thanks for your motivation throughout the whole race. I WOULD NOT have finished at all. Maybe it has been my negative energy that has been holding me down for so long. I need to change that right away, and I mean maybe I need to move away from the friends who are negative/ who I feel don't really care about anyone but themselves. However, for once, it was great having someone say that I could do it, and that I would succeeded, and completely squashing my negative energy.

I feel that running this marathon was one of the most defining moments in college so far. I know 30 years from now I will always remember yesterday. I also hope 30 years from now the two of us will still be friends and still be running marathons.

I now have a new running/ marathon buddy. I can't wait to heal up and get back to running. We will most def be running Philly again in 2010, along with the long distance run a few months before that, and possible another marathon before that.